Tuesday, November 29, 2005

You Live, You Learn

Learnt a lot of things about relationship lately.. the hard way through self experience. Did lots of unpredictable and illogical things that made some of my close friends question : is this Tapai? Well. This IS Tapai. Though most of the time this guy does not have much wants in life, but when he wants, he would do anything for the thing he wants most, including crazy stuff that might even go against 'adat'.
That's the thing with Malay culture. It is full of 'Adat', which it's objective is more towards 'sopan santun', 'jaga hati' and 'cakap berlapik'. Don't get me wrong, I'm all for 'Adat' because it is the identity of one society. However, i do think that there is a borderline between satisfying the criterion of 'Adat' and Satisfying ones need for happiness. Breaking 'Adat' would cause shame. Quoting a good friend, "Shame is temporary, Happiness is Forever". I do think that's true. But some people prefer short term against long term so if that is what they want, that is what they get.
But that's all in the past now. What should have happened, happened. What i should have done, I did. I shed new light to other peoples lives and i really feel good about it. No regrets. As my mum used to say, "Jangan sampai cakap 'kalau' ".
A new perspective about the term ,"Is He/She the one?". Farul told me," The one means the right girl at the right time". These previous weeks, i may have found the right girl, but i must have left my brain sumwhere and left out the 'right time' factor.
How do you know that it is the right girl? Well, for me, you just know. Before this, i could not tell the difference between infactuation/fling or Love. But now at least I do. And i guess i'm lucky to have a few friends beside me as an acid test. The simplest way is to look Ayil in the eyes and say ,' Aku suka dia' confidently. If I move away my eyes, then i am just forcing myself. There are others tests, but i would not dare to reveal it here.
Ayil, Ceng, Rumet, and Farul can always tell if the girl is suitable. That is just how close we are. And of course i would always note that their point of view is always the out come of discussion that they have with their wife, Esah, Along, Qz, and Jue. I can't really imagine where would i stand now if they weren't there to support (and also to make gay, loser and other inappropriate jokes as well).
Suddenly, i think i've exposed my self too much in this blog.. but i don't think i give a damn.. wait a minute....
yeah.. Don't give a damn.
Farul advised me to treat this as a learning process, and try to turn things in such a way that it becomes a motivation. Well, I do believe that i learnt a lot, especially in discovering my own self. And i guess, my friends would have learnt sumthing from my experience. Esah said,"Tapai, At least kitorang tahu ko bukan jenis yang sanggup break up somebody's home for your own self interest". And She also said "Tapai Lagi Handsome dari Ayil". Ahahaha.. (Teka, which statement yang Tipu?).
"Tuhan takkan bagi dugaan yang tak tertanggung". I heard that from sumwhere, and it basically means that if sumbody is meant to be a great person, he/she will have to go through great hurdles in life. There are times that i feel that i am tested until i nearly cross the borderline of sanity. Times that i feel that my chest is about to explode. Times that i feel so helpless. But hey, this means that my 'dugaan' is great.. and I am destined to be a great person. Hurrah!
Emotional Roller Coaster. That is what this experience was. If given the choice to choose between Genting's Triple Looper, Korea's Gyro Drop, and Australia's Lethal Weapon ride combined against Emotional Roller coaster, I would choose the first without hesitation. Well at least I survived the last one. Barely.
So what did I Actually do for the past few weeks? Must've been something sinful, sumthing bad, sumthing in a great magnitude. Well, let's just say something big could have happened. For better or worse? I would not know. But since in everyday Doa we always ask for 'Petunjuk' and something better, i should say what happened is for the best. And for those who knows.. cherish and learn from it.
I know i would. Till the end of time.

Sunday, November 13, 2005

Congrats Te!

Unta Kahwen

Unte kahwen? mesti la roommateku Mizie! (spelt roommate sebab tanak confius dengan rumet, takkan kawen 2 kottt) Macam pesta muda-mudi la smalam kat putrajaya. Pesta pertunjukan Bayi Comel Jugak. Masing masing berpeluang untuk menunjukkan kebolehan bayi masing masing (Ayil nak ajar Marisa buat Summersault.. Good Luck!).

Didn't know there's a space under Masjid Putrajaya that you can rent for functions. Not as big as Merak Kayangan, but good enuff lahh.

Anyways.. selamat Transform kepada bapak org to you.. roomie. ;) May your life be more prosperous with the introduction of a wife in your everyday endeavours.


Snooker & Smallville Marathon @ Seri Kembangan

I have decided life must go on. Que Sera, Sera.. What will be, will be. So.. it shall.

Decided i will start by reprogramming my self to not depend too much on other people and have my own backbone.

Decided to go to Sei Kembangan to have my revenge at Cipok and Zaki (Arib kecut.. so dia main futsal.. ahah). Menang Second game! ho yeah. Improved a lot! tak caya, tanya Cipok & Zaki. I guess it's the pressure of having to pay if you don't get 1st Place. Patut la depa improve tak hingat! Played three games.. and we decided to give away the third game to Zaki (kan cipok kannn?)

Arib.. ada berani ka?!! confidence tengah tinggi niehhh.. jom ar weyhh.. lawan PJ Utara vs PJ Selatan. Well.. tak jamin sapa bley datang, tapi kalau semua nak lawan aku.. bring it on! (hehe.. cakap besar nie, ada can lauk nak mampus nanti)


Breakfast at Tiffany's @ TTDI

Nope, no such restaurant at TTDI. Just for the fun of saying it. (I seem to do that a lot, but who gives a damn, it my blog!)

Earlier that morn had breakfast with Ayil to clear up a few stuff and talked about a few things which i will not elaborate further here. A fruitful breakfast. Planned a few things and picked up chunks of leftover self-esteem, ego, and the will to live left and pieced it up together.

Thanks Ayil at that. Again, forever in debt.


Kiss Ass My Ass! Kick Ass My Ass!

Raya at Hj Romli's before going to Seri Kembangan. For all of you who don't know, he's the Vice President of Customer Service (Retail) of Telekom Malaysia. Got a few updates on how TM is faring nowadays.

One of the issues: It turns out that the license that for granted by MCMC is for TM (Wholesale) and not direct to Celcom. There fore, TM needs to operate 3G under TM Wholesale. If so, it means that if Celcom wants to operate 3G, TM has to sell wholesale to other operators as well (Digi, NationCom, etc.) Oh well.. let us see how this story goes.

Got a few pointers on how to excel in career.
1) Ask yourself.. Why not Me?
2) Grey Areas of job Scope.. take lead.. that is where top management gauge ur initiative and proactiveness
3) When Receiving email from senior leaders.. they want feedback.. so reply back!
4) There is no such thing as Private victory in a company.. so always Think Public! (but note that in order to achieve public victory, u have to achieve private victory first)
5) Office Politics : Ask superior to open up meeting, and have him hand over the meeting to you. That way, the authority is passed down. (How u use the authority is a different topic altogether)


Phew, quite a long entry. Nuff Said.

Saturday, November 12, 2005

Congrats Pijat & Melor!

Wah laaa wah laa.. congrats Pijat and Melor for your engagement. :) looks like ur the second(and third) SRC to get wed. Congrats congratss! Hope ur Wedding in 14 January and 4th Feb runs well. Pijat, just make sure you say the rite name during the akad nikah.. and try to get it perfect the first time! Unlike ceng (refer http:// rumetqz.fotopages.com) <-- punya la malas nak buat hyperlink.

Anyways, it takes no genius to guess that i am having quite a difficult time for the past week. A lot has happened and i would like to say sorry to those who are affected. Hahah..

I just realized that the we just have to keep our heads up no matter what happens. However difficult the path is, surely there will be sumthing sweet at the end of it. Hey, No Pain No Gain Right?

So now i will just put my battle face and sing my battle cry.."ayyiyiyiayiyiyiyiayiayaaaaa".
Bring it on... suckerzzzzz

(God save us all.)

*yes, the last part of the entry is a bit wacky and has no relation whatsoever with the previous paragraphs..just felt like it. Heard it in sum old movie.. :P

Wednesday, November 09, 2005

Jason Mraz : You And I Both


Thank you for reaffirming my long-lost abandoned belief that the perfect person does exist.
So i'm gonna keep my heads up and never give up my search.

Was it you who spoke the words that things would happen but not to me
Oh things are gonna happen naturally
Oh taking your advice I'm looking on the bright side
And balancing the whole thing
But often times those words get tangled up in lines
And the bright lights turn to night
Until the dawn it brings
Another day to sing about the magic that was you and me

Cause you and I both loved
What you and I spoke of
And others just read of
Others only read of the love, the love that I love.

See I'm all about them words
Over numbers, unencumbered numbered words
Hundreds of pages, pages, pages forwards
More words then I had ever heard and I feel so alive

You and I, you and I
Not so little you and I anymore
And with this silence brings a moral story
More importantly evolving is the glory of a boy

Cause you and I both loved
What you and I spoke of
And others just dream of
And if you could see me now
Well I'm almost finally out of
I'm finally out of
Finally deedeedeedee
Well I'm almost finally, finally
Well I'm free, oh, I'm free

And it's okay if you have go away
Oh just remember the telephone works both ways
And if I never ever hear them ring
If nothing else I'll think the bells inside
Have finally found you someone else and that's okay
Cause I'll remember everything you sang

Cause you and I both loved what you and I spoke of
and others just read of and if you could see now
well I'm almost finally out of.
I'm finally out of, finally, deedeeededede
well I'm almost finally, finally, finally out of words.

And I am Really... Really out of words...

Tuesday, November 08, 2005

Jack Johnson : Better Together

Dedicate to that special someone. Congratulations and May you lead a wonderful life.

There is no combination of words I could put on the back of a postcard
And no song that I could sing, but I can try for your heart
Our dreams, and they are made out of real things
Like a shoebox of photographs with sepia tone loving
Love is the answer At least for most of the questions in my heart

Why are we here and where do we go
And how come it's so hard
It's not always easy and sometimes life can be deceiving I'll tell you one thing
It's always better when we're together

Mmm, it's always better when we're together
Yeah, we'll look at the stars when we're together
Well, it's always better when we're together
Yeah, it's always better when we're together

And all of these moments just might find a way into my dreams tonight
But I know that they'll be gone when the morning light sings
Or brings new things for tomorrow night you see
That they'll be gone too, too many things I have to do
But if all of these dreams might find their way into my day to day scene
I'd be under the impression I was somewhere in between
With only two, just me and you, not so many things we got to do
Or places we got to be, we'll sit beneath the mango tree now

Yeah, it's always better when we're together
Mmm, we're somewhere in between together
Well, it's always better when we're together
Yeah, it's always better when we're together (mmm)

I believe in memories, they look so, so pretty when I sleep
And when I wake up, you look so pretty sleeping next to me
But there is not enough time
And there is no, no song I could sing
And there is no combination of words I could say
But I will still tell you one thing
We're better together


Monday, November 07, 2005

5th time is a charm.. for Ceng!

Selamat Hari Raya and Happy Deepavali to All!

wargh.. still in the holiday mood.. miss my katil! Slept too much during 1st and 2nd raya that my head hurts. uhuh.. Kesangapan tahap maksima, plus, i wanted to make sure my energy level is tip top for Along and ceng's wedding.

Anyhow.. Along and ceng's wedding was quite a blast. A part from ceng's 5 time "aku terima nikahnya...", everything went smoothly. (note: 5 time does not include practise). Haha...! lawak la..

I know that Rumet will write a full report in his fotopages/blog, so i'll leave all the details to him.

well.. at last.. ceng got married. Wish both of u well in ur future undertakings!

Along.. pas nie kitorang dah tak ajak ceng main snuker dah.......
Jangan Harappp! :D